musings and goings on.

OK so I have just completed that love dare on my husband it was really nice and helped me a lot.  The final dare is to renew your marriage vows so that will have to wait a little while at the moment.

My husband and I are also reading the one year love devotional, every day you read a page and it only takes a minute but it real does make a difference.

I also got us For Men only and For Women only which i have to admit I haven't finished yet but my husband has.

So i am so happy that we are both committed to working on our marriage together.

We are also attending an H2O course tonight which is on for the whole term learning about Jesus and faith so I am hoping that will help me to better get to grips with everything.

Thank you all for your comments and encouragement on my last post, I have decided to start journalling and trying to find the things that make me happy so that I can be a better wife and mother.

A bit of a fragmented post but a post none that less :o)

Failing

Ok i know my last post was all positive, well this one is not.

I feel like a failure, I have withdrawn from my course as i was finding it too stressful.  I feel like I am am failure as a mother and that I am a failure as a wife and home maker.

I don't feel that I am contributing to society or my family in any way.  I have no qualifications or prospects.  I don't work and nor do i want to, in some boring 9-5 retail job with no joy.

I don't know who I am or where I am going.  We stared going to church but I am not getting it.  I am not getting it at all.  I feel no different at all.

I hate my style as I don't have one.  I don't know what i like, I don't have any beliefs, any goals.

I just feel like I am avoiding my life, I am avoiding all life really. I am doing anything I can to avoid living at all costs.

Not sure where to go or how to change.  Just wish I could wake up one day and know who I was and where I was going.  A sense of purpose and meaning.  A real zest for life and living. A hunger a yearning anything is better than this.

I exist, I stagnante, I escape.

Perspective

As i am discovering life as all about perspective.  If you perceive that your life is crap then it will be so, but if you start to look at life in a positive way then it will be so.  Probably not that profound to most but it is to me.  I have always live life worrying about what more could possibly go wrong, but now I am starting to think that life is good and that we can do this and good things are coming to us.

I was majorly stressing about how I am going to do 4 assignments a week on top of everything i have to do around the house and other work but then i thought no I can do this and you know what, I am doing it.  I am getting it all done and just not stressing and it's become so much easier.

So yeah that's my little pearl of wisdom for today lol.

We are possibly going away on our first family road trip this weekend to visit friends that will be an excellent adventure!

Hope you are all having a great week :o)

Rewind!

Ok so we hit a major bump in the road back there and I decided to start fresh!

So Welcome to Something Good!

We have embarked on a lifestyle change and also on a spiritual journey! So bullet points! We are now eating only Organically, whole and no processed or additive foods ( Mr and Mrs have fallen off but are determined to catch up and get back on!) We are also using only natural products for cleaning around our home and our selves including make up!

O starts School in a few short months and I am truly terrified!

I started my Diploma in Digital Photography and I am finding time management and studying to be hard to get hold of but I will get there!

Mr is starting another new job in a couple of weeks and this will be much better for us as a whole.

L is still challenging at times but I am trying to learn how to love him and how to show him love.

As a family we are now attending church and finding piece in who we are is slowly happening as a result.

Ok so that's the recap.